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“Some years later I bought a beautiful Mercedes Benz convertible and thoroughly enjoyed driving it with the top down through the Napa wine country and along the beaches of the Pacific coast. I have also had fun simply by renting cool cars and boats and lakeside cabins, etc. ”

I am quite certain when you were poor, you have inherited very good qualities from your parents to have self-awareness and self-construction. Thank you for sharing.

I once was a complainer, sarcastic constructive criticizer, and toxic negative kill joy. What cured me was finally seeing this drove the very intelligent, creative, successful, and happy people I most wanted to be like and with .. away. The time out time was most effective and allowed me to finally grow up and smell my own ugliness. Jealousy and covetousness of what I wanted to be, but was too cowardly to do the work required to become, held me bound in self imposed pity and ungratefulness. Of course what usually self medicated this condition was unhealthy addictions and pessimism.

I was blind but now I see! Recovery is a beautiful journey and allows understanding and accepting who I can really change … me! It’s awesome to see the trickle down effects as I genuinely applaud others achievements and ideas. I’m now called “the cheerleader”, a team player, and even recently, Mary Poppins! When someone 3 years ago called me Polly Anna it tickled me and I thanked them because as I told them the Polly Anna’s in my life at one time had called me negative!

Joe Gartigliano the former Cleveland Browns coach who I heard speak a few months ago said ……. There is no “I” in team …… but there Are two I’s in Idiot!

I look forward to learning more from this site and recommending it as well.